Tonight, I spent about 3-4 hours talking to my girlfriend on the phone. She asked me one simple question. What is the tension between me and my family. She asked this partially because I had to put her on hold when the second line at my office rang at 8:30 p.m. My family had tracked me down. I’d gone about 6 months without contact from them. The reasons (as noted) take about 3-4 hours to explain. She was also curious, as I’d stated in my dark post…that people that are newer in my life really don’t know me very well.

I learned how really wonderful she is. I told her some very scary stories of my past. Leading up to the night about a month and a half ago when I was told that my father had died a moth and a half previous to that. I learned how wonderful she is because when I was hit with the news I called the only person at the time I felt I could talk to. This was the friend that is my recently made (by me) ex-girlfriend. My ex-gf is also a very wonderful person.

So, for those who are now regular readers comes the inevitable question…”HOB?” (Hill of Beans)

Well, I’ve been posting lots of dark s*&#. I decided to post something that is near and dear to my heart. My love of theatre/film etc. And show what really ticks within me. I’d like to now post my review and comments on the episode “Once More With Feeling,” episode 107 of the series “Buffy the Vampire Slayer.”

I’ve often told people that I watch Buffy strictly for the Acting and the Directing and most assuredly the writing. I feel it is probably some of the best that television has to offer. Tonight after talking to my girlfriend it was the honest acknowledgment, that the show is something I identify with.

No, I am not a 22 year old woman, I am assuredly a 33 year old male. But what we both are is extraordinarily, unique people who find ourselves wishing that life and ourselves could just be normal….And we take advantages of the gifts/curses we’ve been given that helps up face our demons.

I am a director first and a performer second. I guess it’s a control freak thing…I wouldn’t let you understand…

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