{"id":1188,"date":"2004-08-04T11:28:00","date_gmt":"2004-08-04T17:28:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.lordandrei.com\/blog\/?p=1188"},"modified":"2004-08-04T11:28:00","modified_gmt":"2004-08-04T17:28:00","slug":"gods-i-feel-good","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.lordandrei.com\/blog\/2004\/08\/04\/gods-i-feel-good\/","title":{"rendered":"GODS I FEEL GOOD."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>(This post was originally made friends only&#8230; I don&#8217;t see any reason to hide this)<\/p>\n<p>So, while working on bugs my sister decided to send me a message through an old IM account that I leave logged in at the office.<\/p>\n<p><i>we need to let this hate go, already<\/i><\/p>\n<p>I started typing. I started typing a response&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>While typing she added:<\/p>\n<p><i>fine, when u need family, noone will be there to help..I tried and I&#8217;m tired of the lagging, pathetic, lame fighting..There is more to fight in Iraq than in family<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Then I finished and sent:<\/p>\n<p><font face=\"helvetica\" size =\"-1\">We need to stop starting conversations with what you believe I need to do. You need to acknowledge that this isn&#8217;t hate this is indifference. You need to realize it&#8217;s going to take more than you telling me to &#8216;put behind me&#8217; what you and <i>my birth mother by name<\/i> have done to me over the years, to make me care about what you want. I have a happy, healthy, and drama free life now. Every interaction with you and <i>her<\/i> has only lead to more personal drama, grief, stress, and sometimes debt. Until such time as you realize that&#8230; I really don&#8217;t have much care about what you think, &#8220;we&#8221; need.<\/p>\n<p>As for &#8216;when I need a family&#8217;, the reason I walked away was because when &#8220;I needed a family&#8221; I got the above problems. I have made my own family. And I can depend on them. Thank you for your time. Please contemplate what I&#8217;ve written. Good bye.<\/font><\/p>\n<p>Then I logged off.<br \/>\n<center><br \/>\nMy name <strong>IS<\/strong> Andrei.<br \/>\nI refused to be a victim and I refuse to be a victim now.<br \/>\nI&#8217;m a survivor of emotional abuse.<br \/>\n<a href=\"http:\/\/www.livejournal.com\/users\/misia\/445834.html\">No Pity. No Shame. 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