{"id":583,"date":"2003-02-18T14:02:00","date_gmt":"2003-02-18T20:02:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.lordandrei.com\/blog\/?p=583"},"modified":"2003-02-18T14:02:00","modified_gmt":"2003-02-18T20:02:00","slug":"the-self-torture-begins-anew","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.lordandrei.com\/blog\/2003\/02\/18\/the-self-torture-begins-anew\/","title":{"rendered":"The self torture begins anew"},"content":{"rendered":"

Well, I’ve found motivation to get back into a diet again. I don’t believe that I’m as strong physically as I should be. I’m also worried about some of the health risks of my family line.<\/p>\n

So, I’ve decided the best way to commence this is through ritual.
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\nFirst, I’ve examined my status.<\/p>\n

The good news is, that I’m not as heavy as I thought that I was. At my worst, I measured 202#. That was the first motivation to start. I managed through some diet regulation and changes to push down to 195#. That was a few months ago. I’ve tried to maintain that regulation…but have faltered. I could see it in my face. So… I decided to start again today… I started by (gulp)<\/em> weighing in.<\/p>\n

When I weighed in during the last time, I usually did it after a shower. Today I did it fully clothed. Imagine my surprise when the same scale I’d been using said *195*<\/strong><\/p>\n

This is encouraging because it means that at least I’m maintaining. Now to really actually make it work for me. <\/p>\n

So… what is healthy. Well, going by a chart at weightchart.org<\/a> it looks like about 146 to 160 is good for me. That’s not a lot. Well, 35-50#; For me the importance is also to transform my gut into muscle mass.<\/p>\n

So, what’s all this ritual stuff? After Magick 101; I was given the ‘blueprints’ to ceremonial ritual<\/p>\n

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  1. Banish\n<\/li>\n
  2. Purification\n<\/li>\n
  3. Consecration\n<\/li>\n
  4. General Invocation \/ Evocation\n<\/li>\n
  5. The Oath\n<\/li>\n
  6. Charge to the Spirit\n<\/li>\n
  7. License to Depart\n<\/li>\n
  8. Banishing\n<\/li>\n
  9. Writing of the record.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    So, I’ve started the process. I’ve banished and begun purification of self.<\/p>\n

    Okay, so maybe some of this sounds a bit strange. But I figure if I can formally dedicate myself to a purpose; truly identifying my goals and finding that which may cause me to stumble; mitered of course with an actual diet plan. I think this will be a good thing.<\/p>\n

    Thus: Goals. Written down for me and the world to see.<\/p>\n

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    1. Wed Feb 26: 5#: Goal 190\n<\/li>\n
    2. Never leave the house unshaven again\n<\/li>\n
    3. Mar 8: Rite of Saturn: 188 maybe 185#\n<\/li>\n
    4. Seriously begin exercising. Stick with it.\n<\/li>\n
    5. Mar 31: Replace wardrobe.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

      Well, it’s just a start….<\/p>\n

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