Currently, I am back logged on life. For anoyone expecting anything from me in the next 2 days you will have to wait and accept this. Work has been a living nightmare the past few days and everytime something goes wrong it falls on me to fix it, even though it wasn’t me that broke it. Basically, I’m the bottom of the food chain which means I get more and more people lumbering over me as we hit more and more issues.
Tied to that, I have to make time to get my drum to the Airport (no small feat) to have them do reembursement papers
I also need to put together a final month schedule for the play which is looming
I must memorize the mass script for Saturday’s mass
I also need to report on Dragon*Con
And as always there are boxes and dealing with my lawyer over issues that should have died 7 years ago
And to be completely honest, I’m not really getting more than 2-3 hours of sleep a night. It’s been that way for about 2-3 weeks. I need a shave, but unfortunately, haven’t had time to stop at the grocery to pick up a new bag of razors.
Add to that that the stress has introduced me to the running wonder of heartburn (It’s now been going straight for about 48 hours)
Bottom line… I’m crabby. I’m irritable. I’m angry. I feel like I’m going to snap off at someone and it’s pissing me off that I can’t even find a moment to try to get myself to zen out and chill.
Truthfully, all I really want to do is find someone with a soft lap who doesn’t mind just letting me lose myself in them (And no, this isn’t sex I’m talking about)…
Many people have been sending virtual hugs as my tension level has been rising…It’s nice and all.. i appreciate it…
But I really am getting at wits end and a real hug might actually be welcomed. I just really hate this. And I really want to break something.
Ratings:
Frustration: 9.5
Lonliness: 9.0
Kind to friends: 8.0
Satisfaction 6.1
Hygene 5.0 (I need a shave)
Detatchment: 4.0
Happiness: 3.5
Relaxation: 1.0
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Well, dammit, you caught me at the END of lunch, or I’d try to come fulfill the hug wish.
Although…it would lead to several yuppie Hollywood types asking their co-workers, ‘What’s with the two unshaven hippies hugging in the courtyard?’
*huggles*
Best I can do 😉
*hugs*
*snuggles*
Hey hun.. if I weren’t a lifetime away in the good old town of Pittsburgh you know that I would be over to let you relkax and calm down. *hugs* you know I miss you lots and miss just hanging out and watching Buffy or things like that.. Been thinking about you… *hugs*
You should come to the munch tonight – there will be lots of hugs there.
And here you’ve been listening to me and my issues…..
I feel that maybe you should be taking care of yourself, not listening to someone cry from 10 000 miles away….
remember…
Ah, I know how you feel. I was there about a couple of days ago. Just remember that this is happening for a reason and that you will learn from whatever mistake you made in the past to cause things to be the way they are now, and you won’t go through it again. Besides, I know Symantec can suck sometimes. It sucks right now for me. But remember what an awesome job you have and that you get to work on something you love. You have accomplished a lot in life. you got to where you are now just on your own back so be proud, hang in there. At the right time, the right woman will come into your life. remember, once you hit rock bottom, the only way from there is up. Think of this as a cleaning out period. all of the shit that is in your life needs to be wiped out. You are doing that now, it just takes time. You want things to be totally clean and clear in the up and coming future. Esepcially by the time you meet someone special. So remember, tend to your business, and always keep in the back of your head: “We are doers more than we are deciders. We do without doing and everything gets done”.