Tag Archive: direction


I was tickled by the question. I’m not going into who asked it or their personal motivations. Today I found something that motivated me to answer as well as helped me to find that answer.

Admittedly, I’ve been spending most of my time taking care of my family and working. I haven’t been to a mass where I haven’t been a member of the team in far longer than I can accurately remember.

But rest assured. My philosophy and religious beliefs are strong. Probably as strong as they’ve ever been.

My little 09/03 child will be raised with the philosophy of Thelema.

I’ve found that I don’t proselytise, but I do promulgate. I am a priest, I will perform pastoral counselling, but I don’t preach. I discuss and most importantly I live. I live in my beliefs.

I met someone one year at Dragon*Con. We became very good friends at the event and talked quite a bit online after the event. She was stuck in an environment
where she seemed trapped by duty to family and relationships. She seemed unhappy. We talked a lot and I tried to convince her to be happy with her own nature. Not to be afraid of it. To try the weird things that she felt inclined to do but feared to see if they really met her dreams and expectations. Yeah, I went thelemic on her; but really never wanted to push Thelema on her.

She changed a lot over the next few years. We had her out to visit us twice. Both times were amazingly enjoyable. Admittedly, we never had enough of our creative business venture figured out to drag her in to join us.

She’s now video logging. And an entry that came down this week (today?) made me very happy. It is wonderful because it feels like so many of the conversations we had. But she’s found it entirely on her own and puts it out there in her voice. It’s infectious and you can see how truly happy and full of conviction she is.

I miss seeing her very much. But it is yet another thing to make me sure of my convictions, my beliefs, and my direction.

The video can be seen on her vlog or I’ve embedded it in the event you’re blocked from her vlog site behind this cut

I had a dream when i was studying film directing that I was going to make a series of films with one or two scenes that over lapped in the movies.

In one scene the main characters would be walking down the street while some ‘derelict?’ got thrown out of a bar. Random extra that almost knocks into our characters who notice it and move on.

In another film our star would be in a bar after a really bad day and get into a fight and get thrown out. As he stumbles out of the bar he practically falls on two passer-bys who notice him and then move on.

The trick being to always have the same actors. Oh, maybe you didn’t notice that the uncredited drunk in movie one was Johnny Depp, But after the first film gets referenced in the second.. it becomes the director’s signature.

I actually had the idea in junior high school, long before the music video revolution and definitely before John Waite. There’s a really bizarre scene in John Waite’s video for “Missing You” where he hangs up the phone and then walks by a bunch of people pointing up looking off camera. It really makes almost no sense.

Of course, there’s also John Waite’s video for “Change” which deals with a crazed jumper being talked down by a negotiator while below several people look up and point.

Cut tag: No.. it’s not a coincience… Come look

Last week I made a post.

I auditioned for my first show in nearly 10 years. The show had the potential of actually paying its actors if it broke even.

Now, a note on the world of professional, semi-professional, and amateur theatre.

There are more people going for the job you want that in the computer industry.

A computer position can interview 5-10-15 candidates.

A show can audition 25 and then shoot you down on the case of: Race, Gender, Age, Weight, voice, attitude.

This past year, every interview I’ve gone to has yielded disappointment.

Today… I accepted the role that I nailed at auditions.
I am once again an actor.

Life can be funny.