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Again, I need to thank people who’ve been beyond supportive. I’m going to go take a dinner break from the office as a component has broken and I need to fix it. I also need to finish my packet for my tarot Class tomorrow. I’m missing a church meeting tonight I really wanted to go to.

I’ll be online this evening after dinner working on this stuff and then trying to post something that’s more about me and how I’m doing with all this. the internal pain is very hard to explain as it doesn’t come from where I think it’s supposed to be coming from.

More later.

Comments are always welcomed (and appreciated tonight)

-me

This conversation occurred right after the email I received. I have an ounce of relief at the situation. But until I can talk to a Doctor, I am going to be f***ing nuts. So much doesn’t make sense. So much is just too damned confusing. to be honest, I really don’t believe that anyone would be so angry as to keep another person out of the loop.

Granted, I have to admit, i don’t know what I’d do if i was the one who know and my mother was the one trying to find out. I can be all self-noble now and say that I wouldn’t keep her out… but the anger and pain between me and my mother runs deep.

This is even harder on me, because I distanced myself from my sister because she was living with my mother who would lash out at me and she’d lash out at my sister to get at me. I tlkd my sister that I couldn’t talk to her if it would only server to give my mother another reason to be abusive at my sister.

And I wonder if I’ll ever have a normal relationship with someone….

Probably the last conversation of the night…

X-Apparently-To: myemail> via -40.-120.-126.58; 20 Aug 2002 18:53:50 -0700 (PDT)
X-Originating-IP: [xx.xx.xxx.xxx]
From: frend of D*** by way of her friend B***
To: my email
X-OriginalArrivalTime: 21 Aug 2002 01:53:50.0683 (UTC) FILETIME=[98A202B0:01C248B5]
Subject: this is B*** about D***
Date: Tue, 20 Aug 2002 21:53:50 -0400

I spoke to a socialworker about this situation. She is going to find out which hospital D*** is in, and notify me by noon tomorrow.

Meanwhile, all we can do is wait. Otherwise, the flushing worked, and D*** is responsive. She is in and out of consciousness, and between critical and stable. Her platelets dropped, she was in remission, and they are giving her Prednisone through IV. Also Danazol, chemo drug. I know your father had a positive X factor and had a positive lupus anti-coagulant, D*** does too. She does not have Lupus, remind you, she just has a low immunity. D*** is also getting frozen platelets, which she is responding to, and being tube fed. She is on a resporator. D*** was smoking up to a pack and a half a day. Her lungs were not clear with the amount she was intaking.

Whatelse, she is going to be monitored for 48 hours, here. No transfer, yet. This is all I know, so far. I will EMail more when I know.

B***

ijikeru put it very well on IM:
reason for cautious optimism

The last conversation started about 2 hours ago and went for about an hour. I had a network failure and work come crashing down on me. I’m working on about 2 hours of sleep since yesterday. Since finishing up, I’ve had more work explode and several people email me that I accidentally posted a name in the last message. So, too distract myself, I wrote an algorithym to edit the document for me.

At this point I have about 5 people trying to get information as it would seem my mother has made this a personal issue. And seems to be obfuscating information for everyone else. My mother has it in her mind that I was not there for my father so this issue is not my concern and “do not bother.” Sadly I can hear those words coming out of her mouth clearly.

I thank everyone who has called, emailed, written, and just in general been supportive to me as I’ve been enduring through this. It really means alot to me as I try to get information.

The short form. What I’ve been told. My sister is to have her ‘Blood flushed’ because the by overdosing her drugs she has, made herself toxic” I should be due another email shortly with more info if my sister’s friend holds to the schedule he gave me.

There is a lot of very personal information about my relationship with my mother and things I didn’t know about my sister’s ex-husband. Things are getting beyond frustrating, but this is everything that is known so far.

the nuts and bolts of it all

I’ve been asked this alot today. Apparently, Shadyside has 6 ICU areas.
Shadyside’s NICU is Neuro-ICU and their Neo-natal is NNICU.

And yet.. still no info. She’s not even a patient of the hospital.