Archive for October, 2005
If there is one thing I love to chat about it is philosophy. Especially philosophy dealing with the concepts of God, faith, etc. Now, I have one tenant rule for anything I ramble on about. 93==YMMV. (I defined this after many posts using it back in March of 2003).
Understanding “93==YMMV”, here were some wonderful questions and how I responded.
So, today I got randomly asked a question.
In your Opinion – why does God (higher power) choose to leave everything ‘broken’?
This got my mind churning. I had to say simply:
balance and growth.
Now granted, I come from a definition of God which can be oversimplified to:
The limitless single totality of all things that are, were, and can be.
I then tried to explain the progress of the emanations of the tree of life from the one (one) to the two (not one) to the three (that which differs one from two), and so forth.
This culminated in me seeing Kether as like Hadit while seeing Malkuth as Nuit. Kinda my morning’s “Gnostic Clang”
This led to her next question:
So, do you think that is where the “illusion” exists of there ‘not being God’?
Got this one off of OKCupid (Latest time waste/suck). Drop a comment with your score or ID on OKC if you play along. That is all.
This is from OKCupid’s “The Better Polyamory Test”
| Poly Parrot You scored 85% comfortable with leading a poly life and you find a poly life 85% desirable. |
| You are a true polyamorist, and happy about it. There’s always room for improvement though, so don’t stop working! |
My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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| Link: The Better Polyamory Test written by eternal_maiden on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test |
So who would have thunk it? This is theoretically gonna be one of those really good journal posts. This is because this post is really for me and everyone else just gets to go along for the ride.
Normally, this level of meta-exposition isn’t necessary but in this case it works as a perfectly ironic framing device. Tonight Horizon Oasis held a banquet in honour of our visiting guests the OTO USGL Electoral College. An excellent feast was prepared by the officers. And then there was entertainment. Ah, yes. Karaoke.
Now, I have carefully spent the last 20 years reconditioning myself to be an extrovert. This means, not getting wound up over what others think about me, being able to start conversations with complete strangers, and most importantly feel at home in the clothes that are “my being” in public. However, it would seem that when it comes to a book of vocal-less music and a microphone; all bets are off.
To be honest I have in fact performed karaoke 2 1/2 times. The first time was in college when a couple of friends went into a kiosk to destroy Aerosmith’s Love in an Elevator. I chimed in at the end to try to do the bass harmony. A few years later a bunch of us climbed into a booth to rework, “Under the Boardwalk” by the drifters.
But my absolute resistance to solo karaoke is multi-emotional to me. It is frustrating, terrifying, annoying, embarrassing, confusing, draining, and probably about 10 other Gerunds that I can’t come up with at the moment.
Let me back up a moment; I like singing. Well usually. The drive home after the event featured the quietest one might ever find me and that was with my sing-a-long cd playing in the car. Yup, about 80 song designed to strengthen and workout my voice. Theoretically, I have a three octave range. And the strange thing is… I have next to no faith in my own singing voice. Oh, I’ll sing in the car (well, eventually when tonight’s trauma has passed). But, publicly? Only if I have beaten the hell out of myself to get it perfect. Which again, makes no sense when you realize how many times I’ve sung certain songs on my discs.
A lack of faith in my voice? Hell yeah. I consider my voice very nasal from the get go. Yay Jewish Genes. So, this means I don’t think I have a lot of warmth to the tone. Okay… on top of that were the couple of impressionable times in my life where I was told to my face I was ruining a song by attempting to sing through it. And they were people who (for better or worse at the time) I trusted. I have no real gauge. I have had people tell me I’m really good and others tell me that I realllly suck.
So, despite an absolute love of performance and singing, an abject terror on front of people.
Damn, there is more on this topic I want to write right now, but after hiking and discovering high-blood pressure thru embarassment this evening.I’m falling asleep as I type. More tomorrow.
So, many people in LJ love to promote birthdays of friends. Today, I felt inspired to wish, anti/un birthday wishings to those who are currently 6 months off.
So, in celebration of people’s “solar opposition”
6mo – 2 days: pixel12 & kaote
6mo – 1 day: bayareajenn
I will be busy this weekend so un birthday wishes to a huge clump o blogs:
6mo (+ 1 day): sorormystica, kyrene, xagent93x, echomoontide
6mo (+2 day): heruraha